Welcome to My Life

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I'm about to do something that is completely out of my comfort zone. This could very well be a long post and I know most people don't like reading these long posts but bear with me. I have a tendency to internalize a lot things and beat myself up over things I really shouldn't. Why you may ask? I honestly have no clue, it's just something I've done to myself and I know that's bad. I don't always open up about how I really feel at times because I feel like I would be bothering you. This would explain why I may not always text you to chat because I feel like I'm bothering you with things in my life. I'm observant and I listen better than I do talk in my opinion; however, there may be times when I do want to say something but I'm too scared to say anything and I miss my chance or let someone else say something. I hate doing this...I hate that I'm even writing this right now because this is what you want to read about right? My personal problems and insecurities. I probably sound like some sort of victim who's just trying to get attention and trying to throw a pity party. Trust me, I am not a fan of that kind of mentality so you probably may think, then why are you doing this anyway? Because I've been internalizing this for my entire life. Only a small, very small amount of people know that this is going on with me and you know why? Because I don't tell you. I don't want to bother you with my problems. But I know that the longer I keep this to myself, the more damaging it is. So I'm laying it out here. I'm not asking you for anything or to do anything, just listening to me is enough. Whatever course of action you decide to take is up to you. Have a good night.
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mayuralover's avatar
Thank you for basically giving us a piece of yourself. I know how difficult it is to try to put yourself out there where others can judge you, and I don't know how much I can really do for you. I enjoy the stories you write and I always look forward to your next one. Know that you have so many people behind you and always wanting the best for you.